The equal balance of light and dark offers a soulful time to reflect on our own inner cosmology. What is holding us back from shining our brightest, from sharing our true gifts with the world? Where has our pure light become tainted by conceit, greed or arrogance? How are we forgetting the light available within every present moment, instead holding back our shine for a distant future moment? To do this is to harden the edges of our hearts, serving only to push us further from the rediscovery of our true nature. Instead let us chose to soften the beating instrument of our soul at every chance we get, as we collectively remember that each moment contains the opportunity to love more deeply, trust more implicitly and share our vulnerability and innocence with the world. Some may find this easier with strangers, others may find it easiest with those closest, but perhaps most importantly and often forgotten is for us to shine on those who challenge us, who reflect the hidden parts of us, lurking in our shadows as subtle masters of our sweet, shackled beings. Even if your toughest challenger is the most elusive one, yourself. Shine on them all until the shadows have nowhere left to hide.
After a brief flirtation with the sweet promise of springtime, old man winter returned for another round of snow and freezing temperatures. While beautifully frosty and a good reason to stay cozy, it’s no real excuse for idle behavior when you’re (aspiring) mountain folk! More residents are arriving and repairs are finally getting underway. First things first on my end, Davis Galligan is helping me fix a bunch of things on my cabin, which I’m considering rechristening to WabiSabi although that could easily apply to the entire place. We’re starting by rebuilding my door so it finally closes properly and the panes of glass stay in the frame when it’s opened and closed… after that we’ll be enclosing my downstairs room which currently doesn’t have any walls and then moving on to some communal areas of the property including building sheds, designing a recycling center, redesigning the barn and making greenhouse repairs. As springtime draws closer work in the gardens will begin to pick up and we’ll start experimenting with produce and medicinal plants. What, you thought moving to the woods would be a sweet, relaxing retreat? Well in a way it is, as long as you appreciate minimal time on the computer and social media and most of your time being physical, lifting, hauling, digging, hammering, weeding and all that good stuff 🙂 More updates to come as the long march towards Spring continues…
Well I’m officially the proud owner of Valley View, a small off the grid cabin in an aspiring little hamlet called Trillium. Twelve intrepid collaborators, each bringing a unique skill and united by a shared vision, experienced our first community gathering on the land in late January …and we finally closed escrow on Wednesday after a nine month birthing process! Over the months we developed a lengthy legal contract, covering everything from how decisions get made to outlining exit strategies for all types of situations. As the year goes along we will make all of these documents open source in order to share them with other groups who might find them useful. Also, in the final agreement we created an easement for the former stewards of the land, a beautiful and talented couple in their sixties named Chant and Susanna, so they could keep access to a shaded half acre near the river for when they’re “in town” from their adventures of retirement. By doing so they also take on the honorable position of our village elders, for which we’re truly grateful. Their four decades on the land has given them a deep understanding of the cycles of nature, a voluminous knowledge of the intricacy of running Trillium and a strong reputation and connection within the local community. To be able to continue to water the seeds of love they sowed on this land and to have them remain as part of this wonderful journey is a true blessing for all involved 💓
“The original idea had been that the liberation of the self would create a new kind of people, free of social constraint. That radical change had happened but while the new beings felt liberated, they had become increasingly dependent for their identity on business. The corporations realized that it was in their interest to encourage people to feel like they were unique individuals and then offer them ways to express that individuality. The world in which people felt that they were rebelling against conformity was no longer a threat to business but had become its greatest opportunity.”… “If politics is also Freudian, i.e. if it’s a matter of politicians appealing to the same basic unconscious feelings that businesses appeal to then why not let businesses do it? Business can do it better. Business knows how to do it. Business after all is in the business of responding to those feelings.”
— The Century of Self, 2002
On this memorable day I’m curious about how we strike the right balance with our egos. After all, they can be used as a powerful driving force but left unchecked it can easily run rampant. In some ways it can be viewed as a formless and highly virulent parasite, intent on establishing itself through growing its collection of material objects, reputation and power.
For the last year and a half I’ve been maintaining a daily meditation practice with the help of the headspace app. I have completed a variety of courses on such topics as Balance, Focus, Acceptance, Anxiety and Creativity to name a few. The most recent course is all about Generosity and how to nurture a generous feeling for both yourself and others in everyday life. The common thread across all of these courses is that humans are naturally creative and accepting beings brimming with vitality. Our upbringing and very biology itself often create obstacles that make it challenging to fully realize this fact in its entirety. And while for some people especially those with neurological disorders this might be extremely challenging to achieve, I believe the majority of us are ability to learn, unlearn and relearn the necessary behaviors if we become committed to bringing more conscious awareness into all aspects of our experience.
*** #CABINLIFE UPDATE *** A wilderness journal entry, written beside a wood stove in the historic Trapper’s Cabin, the oldest structure on our land. Incidentally we’ve decided to rebrand the cabin, switching to the far more friendly and appropriately named Beaver Lodge 🙂 ***
After a soft move in by a handful of the Trillium residents, we have made it through to the winter solstice, the longest night of the year when the sun rides its lowest arc across horizon of the northern hemisphere. Last night I went to an interdenominational service in Ashland that included talks, music and traditions from a diverse lineage of spiritual philosophies. A Rabbi led the service which included reps from the realms of Buddhism, Christianity, Judaism, Taoism and indigenous Animism. He told us that it was the first event of its kind in that synagogue and was a testament to the deeper and more diverse interconnection that people have been asking for as a result of the tumultuousness of our current political, ecological and social environments.
Wow, amazing how much can happen in a year! After feeling entirely burnt out in 2015 I decided to put everything in storage and attended yoga teacher training last winter in Thailand. It blew open my mind, gave me new tools to heal my body and revealed aspects of my spirit that I didn’t even know existed. What I thought it would just be a quick one month retreat and-then-back-to-business-as-usual turned into a deep 5 month exploration of consciousness. A subsequent journey through Thailand and Bali provided a backdrop for revealing all sorts of old junk and a lingering, unresolved anxiety at the core of my character. The more I observed, the more I realized that this subtle yet persistent feeling had been influencing my behavior since childhood. In fact I’d crafted a complex world of distraction as a way to avoid it. I didn’t feel like I really belonged anywhere. I never really felt at ease. And no matter what I achieved outwardly or how elaborately I distracted myself, the feeling was always there, just under the surface until it bubbled up in outbursts of unresolved emotion.
Did you pay to get Trump elected? I did. And I’m betting you did too. Maybe not with your money or your vote, but we paid with our attention. Every time we laughed at brazen remarks or spread memes intended to disparage. Every time we taunted and laughed, we were inadvertently chanting his name and bolstering a campaign built on fear. We watched this ultimate reality show, unbounded by channel or network, play out across our screens, feeds and news outlets. And we couldn’t help ourselves. We willingly poured our most finite resource, our attention, into the gaping mouth of a ravenous beast that swallowed it all and still gulped for more. Each time we asked one another: “Can you imagine if he was actually elected?” we were subtly praying for it to happen. If you ever wondered about whether our thoughts create our reality, well welcome to the wake up call.
I’ve attended the past five Lucidity Festivals as an attendee and it’s seen me at my highs …and at my lows. Sheesh, let’s not even mention 2015! Earlier this year I returned from Asia and Lucidity was the first event I attended during which I met a few of the cofounders and I loosely mentioned how I’d like to support the project in some way. Within a short few weeks and through a string of unexpected circumstances, I met more of the core team and we began to interweave our dreams of community and collaboration. With each interaction I am won over by this crew’s kindness, authenticity and open-hearted spirit.
What I learned at the TransTech conference further convinced me of what I already intuitively know: transformative technologies have the power to be a huge gamechanger (and money maker!). While technology can’t solve everything, I’m a great supporter of incorporating the full spectrum of both old (think meditation and yoga) and new (think biometric sensors and data visualization) technologies to connect us more with ourselves, others and the planet.